So this is something I’ve been wanting to write about for awhile. I used to be a dancer. I competed, taught, everything. I spent every free second of mine dancing. Arriving hours early to class to just turn up the music and dance. It was who I am. But now, I can not dance. We I first said goodbye it was going to be a short break. I was very malnourished for months and had to have my 3rd surgery in a year. Up until a week before I was literally begging my teachers to let me dance. And then I had my surgery and I started passing out from being malnourished. So that was two months gone. I got a feeding tube and had to use the wheelchair so I wouldn’t pass out, but my break was still temporary. In August I started realizing that this my bit be temporary. I would have to audition for colleges next year. There wasn’t good chances.
And there came October.
I woke up not being able to walk at all. I had some very bad infections going on in my body that landed me several weeks in the hospital, so we thought that was why. But days and weeks were going by and I wasn’t getting better. And this is when I realized there is very little chance that I will ever walk again let alone dance! And by next year? That’s crazy. So this where I start crying. I couldn’t have a conversation about this without crying. It broke my heart. I lost who I was. So then I started thinking, what am I going to do with my life?i thought about it for a long time. My family has a cupcake business and I’d like to do that but I am not able any more. So I asked why are the things I love? Fashion and makeup. So what better way to combine them than to be a makeup artist? I get to work around fashion, and be apart of it. I can do it in my chair. And I can freelance so I can work around my diease and go to school and live my life. I was really important to me not to go to school forever even though I love school. We don’t know how long my life will be or what to expect so I want do makeup and travel the world and so many other things while I can.